What is This
God, I dunno what's wrong with me! I've got insomnia at night, and when the morning's finally there I'm all exhausted, and it takes a huge amount of willpower to get up at all. It feels like my heart's racing most of the time, and I'm all restless. That sounds like stress to me, but I don't know why I would be stressed. Am I in denial or something?
I keep trying to calm myself, but nothing seems to be working, really. I can't seem to be doing anything for a long period at a time. And I just keep stopping what I'm doing for minutes at a time, thinking of something completely different until I realise I'm doing it, get a grip and continue. Several times during the writing of this journal actually.
Whatever. I'm going.
Janne
Walking On Glass
Ok, so I'm worried. There's not a lot of work for me right now, at neither jobs actually. It's just really bad luck that both should go down at the same time. Well. I'm being careful now, so I have some cash later, what more can I do, really? I just have to remind myself that I don't want to be rich. I mean, I don't want to be as poor as I am right now, but I definitely don't want to be rich. Hold on to that thought. I'll be fine, worrying never helps, I never know what'll happen later on anyway.
So. Tomorrow, I'll be off to photograph my sister's theatre group. Well. They call themselves a theatre group, and they are, but they're also into stuff like juggling, walking on glass and lying on nails. And deaf poetry. Varied stuff in other words.
They've made a show they'll be performing at Døves kulturdager in Stavanger, which is like a deaf culture festival, that's I guess the best way to explain it.
Tomorrow they'll be doing the same show at the deaf school here in town, and I'll be going to shoot their reharsals and performance to get pictures for the festival website. Might be fun. Otherwise I'd just sit at home, thinking too much.
Love, Janne.
Childhood Lookbacks
Ok, so I spent the weekend at my mum's house, to spend some time with her before she's off to Porto Santo again, to lie in healing sand. And she's also visiting Madeira for a couple of days on her way back, so that's cool.
Anyway, I don't get much work these days, so I'm a little worried, but I try not to though.
Anyway, my sister's been scanning old childhood photos, so here are some of the least embarassing ones, haha!
Ok, so this is not a boy, it's me. My sister and I were mistaken for boys several times growing up.
Old people: "How cute little boys you have!" Mum, slightly sour: "They're girls."
I'd forgotten this shot actually, until sis sent it. It's taken by our neighbour Harald, he was a photographer in the newspaper in Molde.
And also, all I want for Christmas is my two front teeth.
This is my sis and I, but I must confess I have no idea where it's taken. First I thought it was taken at my granddad's house, but the view doesn't match. So yeah... I still have no idea.
Ok, this is me in the front, our friend Kari in the middle and Heidi at the back. Taken at Kari's house in Molde, I think. I have no idea where she is in the world now.
Janne
Calgary and More Lookbacks
Ok, so I have a Canadian day to spare. Nothing's decided yet, but I'm sort of keen to spend it in Calgary. Because... Initially I didn't get to see Calgary at all, except the airport. And I'm thinking in very spoiled terms, 'cause I am annoyed that I don't get to see every freakin' town in Canada. Which is bad, 'cause I get to see a lot of towns! So I'll try not to get too spoiled here, I'm good. So we'll see, I kinda like Calgary, so...
Anyway, I think I'll post the rest of my lookback photos. These are from very different places... Photos taken by family and friends.
Horsebackriding in 2007, I think, Anna and me.
Trip to my uncle's cabin in 2006.
Done with timer. Ingrid, my mum, me and Heidi.
Me, Heidi and Ingrid.
Photos, photos.
Me, me. Photos, photos.
At a bridge. Heidi, Ingrid and me with my back turned.
Ok, last one is a photo from a forest picnic with a bunch of relatives this summer. Yours truly having a rest.
Janne